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Hi, former poster from long ago here.  Sharing my story  here because I need to put a  physical "promise" of sorts out there that I'll go and get an appointment sorted out, or I'll just talk myself out of it.

Longtime silent sufferer of social anxiety(10 years or so, im mid 20s now) , and due to that silence I believe its mutated into avoidant personlity disorder.

Doing this because I was given the heave ho today by my work(administration type role in an office). Was for general poor performance, which I have zero complaints with, but it all stems from  an utter reluctance and fear of having to approach people with issues needing solved. I siimply wouldn't do it until I absolutely had to, or my line manager asked about said issue and went and solved it himself.  Created untenable issues, and they were right to bag me in all honesty. From a social context, it was a common occurence for me to spend the entire 10 hours of my shift in silence, other than saying hello and goodbye.  I'd only ever talk to my line manager, and that was when he talked to me. When he went on holiday, it was silence from me for 2 weeks. This is a busy and closeknit office of about 15ish folk, where chithchat flowed freely for everyone else, and I was the odd one out. I just have a primal fear of any social interaction with people which requires some sort of prompting on my behalf. 

I simply can't see how I can hold down a job any fulltime job if I don't take action. Hoping by writing this will give me the baws needed to do something about it.

 

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Social anxiety is crippling. It impacts so many areas of your life. 

CBT has been found to be really effective for some people. It’s very much a try it and see.

In past I’ve left jobs due to my mental health and for a long time couldn’t see how I could work. I started in September after years out (other factors too) and while I can do the job, I’m now feeling the creeping doubts. But I’ll fight them! It’s onky 15 hrs a week.

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7 hours ago, Vincent Eyelash said:

Hi, former poster from long ago here.  Sharing my story  here because I need to put a  physical "promise" of sorts out there that I'll go and get an appointment sorted out, or I'll just talk myself out of it.

Longtime silent sufferer of social anxiety(10 years or so, im mid 20s now) , and due to that silence I believe its mutated into avoidant personlity disorder.

Doing this because I was given the heave ho today by my work(administration type role in an office). Was for general poor performance, which I have zero complaints with, but it all stems from  an utter reluctance and fear of having to approach people with issues needing solved. I siimply wouldn't do it until I absolutely had to, or my line manager asked about said issue and went and solved it himself.  Created untenable issues, and they were right to bag me in all honesty. From a social context, it was a common occurence for me to spend the entire 10 hours of my shift in silence, other than saying hello and goodbye.  I'd only ever talk to my line manager, and that was when he talked to me. When he went on holiday, it was silence from me for 2 weeks. This is a busy and closeknit office of about 15ish folk, where chithchat flowed freely for everyone else, and I was the odd one out. I just have a primal fear of any social interaction with people which requires some sort of prompting on my behalf. 

I simply can't see how I can hold down a job any fulltime job if I don't take action. Hoping by writing this will give me the baws needed to do something about it.

 

VE,  when you feel able to get the work thing back to the top of your agenda, check out the Fair Start website i mentioned here yesterday.  It could help you big time.  Good luck mi amigo  👍

 https://www.startscotland.scot/fair-start-scotland 

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28 minutes ago, Jambomo said:

It was, thank you. I had a better day today and have been really busy. I went to view a room in a flat after work, that was hard but I’m ok.

You are doing marvelously. In a few years' time you will be absolutely flying - doing even better than you were before this all happened - and you'll look back at yourself now. You will wish you could come back and talk to yourself now and tell her it will be alright. You will wish the you of now, knew how it turns out. And you will feel so proud about how you grew from all of this. 👍

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On 06/01/2020 at 07:07, Dee Man said:

Reminds me of my cocky wee cousin being asked in a job interview what his weakness was and his reply was, "Kryptonite". Got the job as well. 

I've always wanted to answer that question with "redheads" but never had the courage.

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8 minutes ago, Mark Connolly said:

I was in an interview once where the candidate said "Peanuts. I'm allergic to them".

I'm still not convinced he actually understood the question

😀  Remember when Keith from The Office answered the question on his performance review with "Eczema"?

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I had a bit of a greet at the bells last week and i’m no entirely sure why. Had no real worries or issues, its go sound strange but it was like a relief that i had made it through a year that had its ups and downs.
I had been thinking about my gran earlier in the day who i lost on hogmany four years ago. Also being on this thread has made me realise how much of a mess i made of that time. Was really close to my gran and despite trying to put a brave face on it for the boys mainly, i was stressed to the maximum with it all. Was particularly close to my gran and she passed away, i went to work between then and the funeral, then back to work the day after. I felt possibly at the time, i was trying to show the boys that you can move on from it all, but now i realise that i just made a c**t of things. Didn’t help that 3 weeks after her funeral i was involved in a bad car crash as well and that just made things worse. If i had just taken the time off and got my head around things etc i maybe would have got on better.

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I had a bit of a greet at the bells last week and i’m no entirely sure why. Had no real worries or issues, its go sound strange but it was like a relief that i had made it through a year that had its ups and downs.

 

Sounds like a lot of pent up emotion and I can totally relate to that. Whilst not having a greet at the bells (was with friends, kids all there etc), me and the wife had a wee greet in the wee hours of New Years Day once we were home.

 

2019 started with us going through a miscarriage and then my father-in-law was diagnosed with cancer in April. (Which, on a cheerier note he appears to have beaten and is in remission with positive feedback from the last few doctors appointments). Going back to New Years Day, I think the wee greet was partly due to having had a great night with good friends and a few drinks, but also a lot of emotion reflecting back on the year we’ve had, whilst also saying goodbye and f**k you to 2019 and hoping for a far better stress-free 2020.

 

So whilst the events in our lives have been different, I don’t think how we were feeling within ourselves was too dissimilar.

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Sounds like a lot of pent up emotion and I can totally relate to that. Whilst not having a greet at the bells (was with friends, kids all there etc), me and the wife had a wee greet in the wee hours of New Years Day once we were home.
 
2019 started with us going through a miscarriage and then my father-in-law was diagnosed with cancer in April. (Which, on a cheerier note he appears to have beaten and is in remission with positive feedback from the last few doctors appointments). Going back to New Years Day, I think the wee greet was partly due to having had a great night with good friends and a few drinks, but also a lot of emotion reflecting back on the year we’ve had, whilst also saying goodbye and f**k you to 2019 and hoping for a far better stress-free 2020.
 
So whilst the events in our lives have been different, I don’t think how we were feeling within ourselves was too dissimilar.


Good news regarding the father in law, cancers a crap disease but of it’s caught early can be beaten. Fingers crossed that things are better this year for you.
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15 minutes ago, 8MileBU said:

 

Sounds like a lot of pent up emotion and I can totally relate to that. Whilst not having a greet at the bells (was with friends, kids all there etc), me and the wife had a wee greet in the wee hours of New Years Day once we were home.

 

2019 started with us going through a miscarriage and then my father-in-law was diagnosed with cancer in April. (Which, on a cheerier note he appears to have beaten and is in remission with positive feedback from the last few doctors appointments). Going back to New Years Day, I think the wee greet was partly due to having had a great night with good friends and a few drinks, but also a lot of emotion reflecting back on the year we’ve had, whilst also saying goodbye and f**k you to 2019 and hoping for a far better stress-free 2020.

 

So whilst the events in our lives have been different, I don’t think how we were feeling within ourselves was too dissimilar.

Beautiful that you have someone you can greet with, and about the same shared experiences no less. Seems like a magic moment, in a weird sort of way.

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Sounds like a lot of pent up emotion and I can totally relate to that. Whilst not having a greet at the bells (was with friends, kids all there etc), me and the wife had a wee greet in the wee hours of New Years Day once we were home.
 
2019 started with us going through a miscarriage and then my father-in-law was diagnosed with cancer in April. (Which, on a cheerier note he appears to have beaten and is in remission with positive feedback from the last few doctors appointments). Going back to New Years Day, I think the wee greet was partly due to having had a great night with good friends and a few drinks, but also a lot of emotion reflecting back on the year we’ve had, whilst also saying goodbye and f**k you to 2019 and hoping for a far better stress-free 2020.
 
So whilst the events in our lives have been different, I don’t think how we were feeling within ourselves was too dissimilar.


It’s brilliant you have someone like that. You’re both able to share your emotions like that. I’m sorry to hear about the miscarriage, That’s a horrific thing for anyone to deal with. I’m glad your father in law is on the up and I hope 2020 is a much better year for you all mate.
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13 hours ago, Mark Connolly said:

I was in an interview once where the candidate said "Peanuts. I'm allergic to them".

I'm still not convinced he actually understood the question

Under weaknesses, you've put 'eczema.'

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2nd interview today at 1pm.
Resume is all done, thanks everyone. I used [mention=66969]Adam101[/mention] link in his PM.  Took me a while, but got there.
Bit nervous, which is a good thing I suppose.
update you all soon. 

Good luck mate! Hope it’s not at an animal shelter though...
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Got a phone call at 11am, that they wanted to changed the time to 12.  High noon, Was not a problem was already sitting about waiting.

Got there, sat for 30 mins.......

All went well, did my best. 

2 interviewers good cop bad cop style.  1 hour which I though was long. Took me on a site tour to meet other employees, very strange, but I got past it smoothly. 

Will get a phone call in the next day or two. 

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