Thanks Johnny. Still have the Intense home treatment guys coming every couple of days and although that is coming to an end it has helped.
What I was discussing today was my complete irrational dislike and jealousy of people being happy be it the children down the stairs playing on the trampoline and missing my kids to folk having parties in the garden, really upsets me and I never used to be like that. Used to be happy for people being happy. It isnt me. Even on the phone to the Universal Credit people yesterday shouting down the phone to them because they haven't heard back from my work so cancelled a top up/sick pay payment until they hear back from them was shouting that isnt my fault and was dependent on that money until my payday next week asking to speak to managers etc - I feel like a different person ready to snap at times, on the phone I always put myself in the person speaking to positions but just lost it and broke down. its actual radge and they where kind enough to refer a foodbank and wasnt the persons fault but genuinely at times felt on call it wasn't me then felt crap for a couple hours when I calmed down for the shit I gave them.
If there is any UC experts out there is this correct? Despite my wage slip and doctor note confirming my wage and circumstances they can stop payment until employment actually confirm it 3 days before confirmed payment leaving people dependent rooked? They said it will be backdated but not really the point. Sorry for the random rant.