Hi, former poster from long ago here. Sharing my story here because I need to put a physical "promise" of sorts out there that I'll go and get an appointment sorted out, or I'll just talk myself out of it.
Longtime silent sufferer of social anxiety(10 years or so, im mid 20s now) , and due to that silence I believe its mutated into avoidant personlity disorder.
Doing this because I was given the heave ho today by my work(administration type role in an office). Was for general poor performance, which I have zero complaints with, but it all stems from an utter reluctance and fear of having to approach people with issues needing solved. I siimply wouldn't do it until I absolutely had to, or my line manager asked about said issue and went and solved it himself. Created untenable issues, and they were right to bag me in all honesty. From a social context, it was a common occurence for me to spend the entire 10 hours of my shift in silence, other than saying hello and goodbye. I'd only ever talk to my line manager, and that was when he talked to me. When he went on holiday, it was silence from me for 2 weeks. This is a busy and closeknit office of about 15ish folk, where chithchat flowed freely for everyone else, and I was the odd one out. I just have a primal fear of any social interaction with people which requires some sort of prompting on my behalf.
I simply can't see how I can hold down a job any fulltime job if I don't take action. Hoping by writing this will give me the baws needed to do something about it.
