Good luck with your situation. You probably will need to distance yourself from some of friends/associates if you are serious about getting on to a cleaner path. Tomorrow sees me hit 150 days ‘sober’. I have a sober counting app that can be motivational at times [emoji3] It’s quite the cliche in alcohol/drug abuse circles but getting clean probably won’t be a panacea. I’m still a depressed, stressed, over worked, temperamental tube half the time but at least I’m not drunk all weekend and hungover half the week. Also little improvements here and there can add up. A little exercise, eating better, sleeping better etc.