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  1. Just read through this entire thread and its given me the courage to finally talk about what I've been living through secretly for at least ten years. At high school I was really happy and had lots of friends and was popular, life seemed easier and when I was around 13/14 I started going around with a different group of friends more often. For whatever reason one or two of them conspired behind my back and made up lies about how I told someone not to fight back when one of them was fighting them. I was mates with this other person but this was an outright lie. Outside school I was attacked without warning by one of my so called friends and all the rest backed them up. For about three or four weeks I had to put up with abuse and my life was hell. I've always been quite quiet and didn't really respond and try to find out why and who did this. After I while they let me pal about with them again but it was never the same, they were quiet aggressive towards other groups who I used to be friendly with so there was slowly only one group I could hang about with. I went about with them after school for a while but looking back the friendship seemed toxic and when we were out I was always drinking loads and taking drugs to try and cover up this and stop me from being so quiet. It was around this time that I wised up and realised that the friendships were really one sided, apart from one or two friends. I started hanging about with them more but unfortunately they both left and joined the armed forces and I lost contact due to this and working shifts and weekends. I started to stay in at the weekends drinking heavily and stopping exercise, I guess it was then that my depression really stared. I went from one dead end job to the next. I ended up at the same place as one of the original group of friends and not only did he ignore me I noticed him laughing and talking about me with others at a table. Mind you by this time I was quite fat and I didn't really give a shit about my appearance. I also had to out up with a few ex friends pissed up at a football pub at was at with my old man and they started taking the piss. After the third company in a row shut down, a week after I finally got a full time contract, I managed to land my first decent job in over five years. I was determined to make a go of this job and really tried hard to get along with my new colleagues. Unfortunately my boss had other ideas and began a five year cycle of abuse and torment. Little by little I would again see colleagues turn against me for no apparent reason. I had no clue as to what was happening until I looked up a bullying site and it was almost like looking in a mirror. I started following their ideas and documented everything for over six months then as soon as I approached them about it they ran to hr and complained about me. I had to face the md and hr, who was basically the bullies friend, taking pot shots at me and calling me paranoid, even though I had written evidence and even one recording of them at it. I was told either to shut up or I would be sacked. After five years of this and it realising that it was making me ill I had to leave. Looking back it wasn't the jibes and put downs that were hurtful it was the outright lies and seeing decent people suddenly become enablers just to fit in and start the cycle of bullying. I did manage to tell one new start about what was really going on and the helped me immensely. I also had to get help from my family who helped me deal with it. I used to come home and just sit and feel terrible, sometimes I was close to tears and one day having tea with my mum and dad I just borked down and had to tell them about it. From this low I started exercising and lost three stone, I also stopped drinking pretty much. Despite me losing three stone the arsehole boss decided that it was just a baggy jumper. On top of this his sidekick left and I took on at least half of his tasks and did them well, despite getting abused and sabotaged. I managed to get out of there and moved into a new job and a new house. Unfortunately my new neighbours were weirdos and had a dispute with the previous owners and were still taking it out on me. I have had to suffer them banging about and complaining about stupid stuff since I moved in but recently it has got better. One day when I was again spending a Saturday night on my own I was watching a film and part of the plot was about death. I suddenly had a panic attack and realised that for the last ten years or so I have been locking myself away from society instead of facing up to what one or two arseholes have done to me over the years. I got back in contact with my original friends and little by little I managed to get back on contact. I sent a really heartfelt message to two of them, one of which was the person I suspected of lying all these years ago, and they completely ignored it. Eventually I managed to meet up with them and had a quite uncomfortable night at a concert where one of them openly said that they didn't want to sit near me and another tried to make out I was gay or something. Not all of them were like this though so I continued to try to prove myself with them despite this. This was around a year ago and I can count on one hand the times I have been out with them. I went out once or twice with work colleagues and had a much better time with almost complete strangers, I think this says it all. I think I need to speak to a professional about how to deal with the last ten years and maybe how to trust people again. I know that it was just bad luck but sometimes I get really introspective and down and start to think that somehow it must be me, like because I'm quiet and have decent manners that people just take advantage and walk all over me. Because of the bullying I can now see it coming a mile away and have nipped it in the bud straight away. I realise that people abuse others because they are insecure themselves and it is a sign of weakness. I have never been diagnosed for depression but I was incredibly withdrawn from society, apart from work and family for around ten years. Sometimes I feel angry and disgusted about why I let this happen but can't really talk to anyone about it. Part of me wants to be normal and go out every weekend but usually my negative side wins and tells me to stop trying to contact these people as you keep getting hurt, like some sort of self defence mechanism. I did actually think about physically attacking one of them as in my mind they were responsible for ruining a large part of my life. Maybe I do need to confront them, but why would any other friends care now? It certainly pisses me off and I think about it at least once or twice a day, every day. I'm guessing that this tone comes across in a lot of my posts on here. I just wish that I could flick a switch and stop thinking about it and find a decent group of people who can appreciate me for who I am, I get on fine with work colleagues but they all have their own lives and I am scared of opening up to them. I've thought about Internet dating etc but always feel like I'm not ready or perhaps someone would run a mile if a told them what I've been through. All I know is that since the panic attack I know myself that something isn't right with staying in and wasting more time. Sorry if this is a big read but I wondered what others might think about this situation. I don't feel suicidal or anything just constantly annoyed and this takes a lot of energy out of me and I get highs and lows as a result.
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  2. Too many puns now #notdece #forcingit
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  3. Hey you joined in. An alliance of bigoted half-wits. It's a beautiful moment.
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  4. with 10,496 posts, surely you disparaging P&Bers is like David Cameron lambasting 'them F***ing Tory B^st^rds'
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  5. I didn't like #dece to begin with but gave it a chance. Really is top bantz. Partick Decele.
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  6. Maybe he just misspelled fantastic?
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  7. I understand the process of liquidation of the RFC plc is still on going and probably will be for the next couple of years, much has to be unraveled such as what was Duff & Phelps role in the administration process and how does this will affect the liquidation process since the process of liquidation will be stop start likely due to future legal proceedings. It is possible that money is still tied up among the paper trails and holdings the previous company had under Craig Whyte and it could be messy and drawn out but very interesting all the same. All the same I'm sure the Rangers fans will still refer to the creditors as vultures even though that money belonged to the creditors in the first place. It was those creditors money that was misused by the likes of David Murray and Craig Whyte .......and got to laugh at this, Rangers fans money that was misused as well. Well you can't put a price on loyalty can you?
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  8. I thought they were failed social workers and failed lawyers, now they are just masquerading as them. Which is it?
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  9. My post was written in a red mist so couldn't imagine it being legible let alone agreeable You are spot on though, most people don't have that much of say in who they support, it's how they're raised. With my dad being a Rangers fan i was always going to be a Rangers fan, i've lived in numerous different places all with different football teams, what should i do then, change the team i support every time i move house? They deny it but it's quite simply jealousy, they don't like the OF as we win everything, they deny the jealousy and say it's because of a monopoly, a monopoly which started from both clubs being the most attractive and supported teams in Scotland. They bleat on and on about how unfair this is and accuse OF fans of not properly supporting their teams, supporting our clubs due to bigotry rather than a love of football. From my viewpoint they spend most of their time obsessing, bleating and crying over how successful the OF teams are, moaning about bigotry and basically anything other than supporting their own football teams. If they stopped trying to play the poor wee downtrodden victim card and started supporting their teams then maybe, just maybe they might be able to compete and become a successful football club. Bitterness and jealousy turns people into horrible creatures and i think there are just as many "diddy" team fans that get caught up in "All OF are bigoted c***s, yadda yadda" than there are OF fans that get caught up in sectarianism. I love diddy team fans that couldn't care less about the OF because they support their own teams. Others should learn from them.
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  10. Only youth players. To get the senior players details you need to ask in the club shop.
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  12. Normans getting angry again, as i said - he's not as smart as he thinks he is...
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  13. Try Pilot FM Ltd, Jordo. I use them for my flats. http://www.pilotfmltd.co.uk/
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  14. Exactly, then sit back and celebrate your handiwork with a cigar.
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  15. Thinking of joining. Is there an age limit? #mightbetoodeceforthisbutwillingtogiveitago
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  16. Pink Floyd - See Emily Play
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  17. Jesus Christ this thread is fucking dismal.
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  18. Absolute bawbag. How's that for you?
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  19. Manfred Mann - Bad Bad Boy
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  20. Bit late but this thread is qual, can I join? Just had a v.dece sandwich. #decepiece
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  21. My 17 year old son is now insured to drive our car.yasss.no more taxis,minibuses or walking home after a night out.
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  22. Ah got it lol. Hope this is being cleared up soon. Begins to turn into a saga. Just let Livi show the papers (in public or to STV or any other media) then we know who is lying...Livi or Elliot
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  23. The stocks and shares expert role on here as already been filled by Hellboy. Find yourself another niche....
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  24. Had he been places? dun hings?
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  25. I'm quite annoyed we didn't get to see a pissed up GreatJon Umber swedging away with the 8 guys it takes to pin him down.
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  26. FFS! So rules that apply to all clubs are now viewed as 'hurdles' that have been delberately and vindictively designed by 'them' to hamper Zombie Rangers progress.
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  27. Suzanna Reid to cheer me up at the end of a nightshift...........
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  28. Favourite Walker moment was the league cup tie away to Montrose. Old Man - "No 8, you've been at that AWW GAME!" Walker - "f**k off, you'll be deed in an oor anyway. "
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  29. Do you and Supras suck each other off?
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  30. Both Allan Walker and Stuart Anderson should be good signings for Brechin, although I wouldn't play them together in a four man midfield. As others have said, I think it's the time for Walker to move on but he was a great servant for us, would've been nice to give him a wee send-off - he played, it appears, 237 games for us and can only have missed one or two games in the last four seasons so it's always sad to lose a player as long-serving as that. Always tried his best, played for the jersey and scored some goals that've had us going wild - notably his screamer of a volley to end Dundee's unbeaten run and keep us in the title race, and THAT header at East End which remains my most celebrated Rovers goal. If only he'd tucked away that chance in the Scottish Cup semi at 0-0.... Just McGurn (if he signs), Murray, Hill and Ellis remaining from the semi-final side in 2009 now. Walker's screaming at a ground as close to the pitch and as quiet as Glebe Park will be absolutely unbearable though.
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  31. Nothing like easing yourself back into it! Fairly gentle 5 miles tonight. Feeling good. Might either try a hill or two or attempt some speed work tomorrow provided I still feel that way by the evening.
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  32. You haven't offended me Tedi. You've frustrated me by your inability to discuss this like an adult but offended? Nah, I've been called a lot worse on the internet and as you said earlier, I am a nobody. What, did you think the fact I'm completely unqualified in law is news to me? Thankfully the rulings/laws I've discussed are devoid of any legalese and you don't have to be learned to speculate in this thread. A title is simply a title, it indicates a person has achieved a certain position or qualification. It does not mean a person is acting in a professional capacity. His opinion will carry more weight than mine, on that we are agreed. LNS and I have the same opinion on this though, that under the SFAs definition of club they are separate. My argument going back to my first post on Sunday is that the SFAs definition of club is at odds with the legal definition. You keep trying to claim I'm arguing with LNS as a means of deflections so I'll make this incredibly clear: I am not saying LNS is wrong, I am saying you are wrong to claim he was acting in a his capacity as a law lord. It's worth pointing out (again, as you ignored the first time), that LNS's most recent involvement prior to issuing the statement we're discussing was... oh that's right, when he chaired the panel which handed out the transfer ban that was subsequently overturned in court. Was he acting as a law lord when he handed that punishment out? Here's the evidence that once a club incorporates a company they become one legal entity. Straight from Sport Scotland. He didn't clearly define them as separate considering he then went onto use his short hand for the club to describe the company. I have no idea, this is the first I'm hearing of that. The fact they decided against certainly isn't evidence that Sevco is the same club, it's possible they decided against for any number of reasons. Maybe they need to have been disadvantaged to instigate a challenge? I'll need more details before I can even attempt to formulate an opinion. Nope. The SFA do not get to define club when there is already a legal definition. That would be like suggesting the FSA overrule the government on banking legislation. "Tedi, on 04 Jun 2013 - 20:22, said: Nice demonstration of not being obsessed by the way, you have been arguing this point for 3 days straight alongside numerous attempts over the past Year, you really are convincing." Thanks. (Just in case you're being sarcastic, I've spent the last 3 days confined to my bed room for all bar two trips to the doctors/pharmacists. I've spent most of the last 3 days playing Champ Man 01/02. 8 posts or so over 3 days is hardly obsessive and you call people obsessed so often it's lost all meaning anyway. Back to work tomorrow though so it'll probably be back to my usual average of about 1 post per week.)
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  33. Swampy is in the USA, right? Should defs change his location to "Washington Dece.C"
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  34. Echo and the Bunnymen - Killing Moon
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  35. http://i.minus.com/i8NPs6Btkhljr.gif
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  36. I'm not so much blaming Rangers, as the the people who 'follow' them at the expense of their local team. Without wishing to go over it all again, I've decided I'm more readily prepared to miss Queens games than before, following the way my club voted last summer. The reality is though that I've still attended the majority of games. Anyway, the point isn't about me, or even Queens. It's about the fact that too few people, in my view, would see themselves as fans of their local diddy outfit. Of those who do though, most are pretty committed. The same would not be said of those who call themselves Rangers (or Celtic) fans.
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  37. There was nothing predictable about that snake story. Nothing at all. No, siree. I never saw any of that coming.
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  38. I must admit, I've been very impressed by Murray so far this Summer with his signings and how he's dealt with individual players. As I said previously, last week I think - IF McGlynn was still at Starks Park, Walker would've been the first name down to be re-signed, despite being very poor for at least 2 seasons now. Murray has shown a back bone; he has proven to his players that if they don't perform they won't play - he took his time last season but once he got in to the swing of things, he seemed to be quite relaxed and easy about dropping under-performing players. It looks as if Murray could develop into a very astute manager - at this level, at least. I wouldn't put Raith past having a good go at things this year if they can keep their more influencial players fit - Moon, Fox, Spence and Elliot instantly spring to mind as being quite injury prone or a big miss for the side if they are missing. IMO, as a neutral, looking at your squad I'd say you need 4 more signings - 1 more striker, 1 more winger, 1 more CB and 1 more LB (because Donaldson can cover RB). I feel this is entirely possible within Raith's budget, and if the first 3 or 4 signings are anything to go by, the next few signings could enhance Raith's chances of a superb season even further, I'm not saying Raith are going to win the league, or even challenge - but I'm sure any Rovers support would admit, a top 4 finish with a decent return of wins, particularly at home, and you guys will be happy. I'll miss the derbies this year, they're always great for entertainment and atmosphere. Hopefully my Club can sort themselves out and the Fife derbies can continue for years to come. I wish you every success in this coming season. Good luck guys!
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  39. Probably late to spot this, but I see Airdrie United are assuming the name of the long-extinct Airdrieonians... http://www.bbc.co.uk/sport/0/football/22762457 Quote: Chairman Jim Ballantyne, who has been in charge since the new club was formed, explained on the club website how reverting back to the original name was possible. "When the old company went into liquidation, it was in a different football environment and the use of the name was not possible at that time," he said. "With all the recent changes, however, and subsequent rulings, it paved the way for us to make the move and therefore we set the wheels in motion". I doubt a translation is necessary, but it's something along the lines of "We used to have rules about this type of shenanigans but now that Scottish football has decided that you can be anything you want to be if you just brazen it out, we've decided to call ourselves something we aren't".
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  40. Liam you first referred to the UEFA website trying to point out that Rangers weren't recognised, whereas Dunfermline wre. It was pointed out to you that UEFA do not record lower league clubs history on the website, that was shown as being correct to. You were then asked what official body has ever stated that this was a new club, once again you failed to address that question, quite simply because this has never been stated. Then you were asked,under a football context do UEFA recognise the history and continuation of SCC Napoli, a club that has went through the liquidation process. Once again you declined to answer the question,again simply because you know that UEFA recognise that clubs continuation, as it does every member club that has went through the same or similar process. Get used to it, Rangers Football Club is recognised by all official bodies as one and the same football club from 1872.
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  41. My last exam was yesterday. It wasn't great, but I can finally relax and enjoy my 3 month long summer before *hopefully* starting Uni in September. Got Bruce Springsteen, Bon Jovi and T in the Park all coming up in the next few weeks as well and before I know it, the football will be back. Pleasing/dece.
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  42. Appears that Lexi has previous with this type of statement
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  43. Adults who cycle on the pavement should get five years in jail. Minimum.
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  44. Well that puts him about 3 levels above last seasons midfielders.
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  45. Deuce is Spanish for dece m8 #Muydeuce M. M. M. Deuce discoteca, EMO
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  46. Actually eating a Rustler's burger guys, proper nadir here
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  47. Because of the upturn in the use of "dece" and "bants" by the Livi-Trolls, I've started mentioning it normal life. Yesterday I told my girlfriend she was "dece bants", to which she thought I was being sarcastic, once she stopped shouting I asked if she could still see me through the tears of seethe. This site does bad things to the vocabulary
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  49. Read back some of the posts on this thread and just look at how open and brave some people have been in talking about and discussing theirs and others condition. Maybe then you'll realise what an utter fucking dick you are.
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