And you will, you are braver than you think, you are smarter than you think (well, maybe not in the choice of fitba' club) and you can and will get through the festivities.
For anyone that needs to talk, no shame in it - 1 in 4 folk in Scotland will suffer from a MH problem in their lifetime, and there's 2 suicides in Scotland every day. 2 too many if you ask me.
Remember that help is a phone call or click away, even P&B is a crutch to some, knowing that there's others in the same boat can be a comfort.
http://www.samaritans.org/your-community/samaritans-work-scotland
http://www.samh.org.uk/
So keep yerselves safe over Christmas.
Col