I've been diagnosed with depression for about seven years and from what I now know of the illness I have had it much longer than that. During that time, while on one type of medication or another and one type of therapy or another, I put anyone who ever cared about me through all kinds of shit. It all came to a head about three years ago when the arse almost fell out of my world. Over these past three years I have managed to come off the medication and start to take some control of my life. I felt that the tablets were making me so numb to what was actually happening around me that, against my doctors advice but with my familys encouragement, I started to wean myself off them. I'm not saying that taking medication for depression doesn't work but I am saying to concentrate on the longer term effect they are having on you. The best piece of advice I got was from a dragon of a therapist who said that I should start taking responsibility for my own actions. I'm not "cured" of depression but the bad times aren't so black and the good times aren't so full of sunshine anymore. I still find it difficult to talk about things but if anyone fancies a blether through PMing, feel free.